I’m meant to hear back from UEA about my masters by Friday - next Monday at the latest.

It’s either going to be a ‘no’ or a ‘maybe’.

I am the antsiest motherfucker around, no question.

on one hand, I want them to respond to me NOW NOW NOW

on the other, if they respond to me too early, it’s probably a rejection

or maybe they would love me

or maybe they would tell me that I am a poopdick

ALL OF THE CONFLICTING EMOTIONS

I feel like I should be hopeful but not too hopeful but I should also prepare myself for crippling failure and a crushing death blow to my self-esteem

So now I’m just going to stare at my inbox for another 5 to 6 days.